Opinions are like… well you know..

Hey y’all! So as you can see it’s been a bit longer than a week since my last post. I didn’t forget actually. I sat here a few days ago and spent about an hour typing, and when I clicked “publish post” there was nothing there. As you can probably imagine, the combination of pregnancy hormones and me just being me had smoke coming out my ears and I closed my laptop for a few days to recollect my thoughts LoL. In the meantime, though, I’ve been quite productive :) We had another baby dr, appointment yesterday. Those are always fun. Baby girl is growing by the minute and her elbows are packing even more of an impact than last week (greeeeeat! haha) but time is winding down and everything still looks great so that’s always a positive way to start the week! We also started sending our German shepherd to daycare. Today was his first time. He’s not exactly the most social butterfly in the world and with a growing family and his attitude problem, ain’t nobody got time for that! So… daycare. And he apparently did really well. I think I probably had a worse day than he did, which included sobbing when I left him this morning. I can only imagine when it’s time to leave baby girl at daycare for the first time. Only difference being I won’t have to worry about her barking at and potentially biting someone. LOL!!! So, now that we’ve got the inside peek at all things Mommy Rayne, let’s get on to the good stuff shall we?
So with the constant support I have been shown by you guys over the last several years, and the continued support now, I am constantly thinking of ways to stay interactive and give y’all something to look forward to reading about. As uneventful as daily life can be sometimes, aside from decorating a nursery and enrolling my troubled pup in boarding school LOL, I actually DO still follow all the craziness that is the world of professional wrestling and over the last couple of weeks I have seen so many things that are just kind of rubbing me the wrong way. One good thing about being a “free agent” is that I have the ability to say just about anything that’s on my mind without restrictions. With that said, let me first reiterate, *I was not released from my contract on bad terms, with any ill feelings, or with the slightest bit of regret for giving everything I had to Impact Wrestling for 4 1/2 years!* I’ve had what seems like an endless number of tweets lately telling me that I need to go wrestle elsewhere, and people cannot believe I got fired because I was pregnant. Y’all, as much as I appreciate the support and the fact that people were affected enough by my release to generate some sort of emotion, please don’t stress over it. I’m surely not. As cliche as it may sound, if I am meant to be back in a wrestling ring on television, God will put me back there. And I have this overwhelming feeling that He will, but for right now I’m so excited and so looking forward to being a mommy and bringing the next generation of Queen Bee into the world. :) It seems to me though, that lately, everyone has an opinion on the state of professional wrestling, and more noticeably to me, Impact Wrestling. As wrestlers, we give absolutely everything we have to make you guys love and/or hate us. We feed off of your emotions. Whether it’s cheering so loud we can’t hear ourselves think, or boo’ing to the point that security has to walk us to our vehicles at the end of the night, we love the fans for the enthusiasm they bring to each and every show. Now, of course with the good comes the bad, and the “bad” of this raw emotion from the fans is the ability for some people to at times pass judgement or form an opinion on things that are not part of the show. There have been several changes in the faces you see on a weekly basis lately. I know that TNA is freshening up the roster, utilizing the X-Division more and even bringing back some familiar faces from the past. If I’m not mistaken, WWE has also got some incredible new talent on their shows. As a matter of fact I know they do. Dean Ambrose for example, INCREDIBLE talent that I had the privilege of being on several independent shows with years ago. He’s been ready for tv for a long time and it’s exciting to see him there now! Making room for fresh, new talent sometimes requires cutting ties with people who haven’t been as involved in awhile. *raises hand* just ask me, I know all about that scenario LoL! But seriously, that’s the name of the game. In an effort to give the fans what they want, Vince McMahon and Dixie Carter do what they think is best for business as far as the talent representing their companies. Now I can’t speak personally about the WWE or Vince McMahon as I’ve obviously never worked there so let me comment briefly on something that I do have a bit more experience on; TNA and Dixie Carter. This last week has been a busy one among those in the Twitter community, both fans and talent tweeting about the state of Impact Wrestling. In my opinion, Thursday nights are off the charts exciting! And that’s because of the incredible talent being allowed to shine every week. It is so unfortunate to me that when a good thing comes to an end for some people, they put a negative spin on the entire experience. I can already see the headlines on the gossip sites now: “Madison Rayne bashes (fill in the blank)”… save your fingers the extra work typing folks. This is not a direct shot at anyone in particular. It is simply one girl’s opinion on the way a chapter in life should be written. There are hundreds of hungry young men and women dying for a shot at a wrestling contract. Maybe I’m still humble because I was young getting into TNA and fairly young upon my departure but the last thing I would consider doing at this point, is jumping on an interview opportunity and lashing out at how my contract came to an end. I’d rather do an unscripted blog and explain to everyone who was upset about my departure, that I literally had my dream job handed to me at the age of 22, and with that came opportunities many people never get to experience. I bought my first passport after signing with TNA, because prior to the winter of 2010, I had never been out of the country.That passport took me across Europe on three different occasions, to Canada countless times, and allowed me to spend 5 days in Abu Dhabi! WOW!!! For a small town girl from Ohio, that kind of stuff just doesn’t happen! My point is this though: even though my release came as slightly unexpected, I would not trade one second of the time I spent at Impact Wrestling, one friendship I made there, and I certainly wouldn’t bite the hand that fed me for so long and say outrageous things upon my departure. Nothing lasts forever ladies and gentlemen. Be thankful for the opportunities you are given and the God-given talent that got you there. As far as Dixie goes, that passport I mentioned, all those trips around the world, the chance to frisk Earl Hebner (LOL) was all because of her. Bosses are always the easy target when something is less than perfect. That’s business. But at the end of the day she gave the green light to every face you see on the Impact roster. That’s something I think everyone should thank her for because that roster kicks ass! I still touch base with Dixie often. I send baby bump updates to her in the middle of the day and not one time have I gone without a response. And any woman who can deliver something to a worldwide audience as amazing as Gail Kim vs Taryn Terrell in a ladder match live from Las Vegas deserves a round of applause in my book. ;)
In closing this lengthy novel I’ve unintentionally written I just want everyone to remember that professional wrestling has been around for a long, LONG time. Along the way it’s had high points and also low points. But the fact of the matter is that it’s a past time no one wants to see disappear anytime soon so before pointing a judgemental finger once the cameras are off and the lights go down, I think all the creative masterminds behind each and every televised or live event deserve a pat on the back and a “thank you!” …but again, we all know what they say about opinions…. and that’s just mine ;)

XOXO

OH! And how could I have forgotten one of the best updates of the last 2 weeks! @Reaper_3 and I got our maternity pictures back this week… here’s a sneak peek at one! ;) Enjoy!

Ashley_13

Always sunny in Philadelphia… what about Florida?!

Hey guys! As always, I’m fashionably late on this second entry. The beauty of doing things on my own is that I… can do things on my own time :) Unfortunately for anyone who looks forward to my blogs, a little known fact about yours truly is that I am completely incapable of being on time. I assume my Karma will be when my due date comes and goes and baby girl decides she’s not quite ready to brave this crazy world. Ha! But it’s Saturday, I’ve got my lifeline (my ONE cup of coffee that I’m allowed daily- rough, lemme tell ya) and I’m ready to play catch up on the events of this last week!
Let me first address the title of this blog. As you all know, my husband is in the Air Force (can’t resist a man in uniform LoL) and we recently moved to Florida. Ironic, because I spent the last 4 years swearing I would only ever work here, never live.. but I’m eating my words now because I LOVE this place. I love it, with the exception of one minor detail… we’ve been here almost 2 months and have proabably seen 10 days of sunshine? Seriously, joke is on us right? We got here TWO DAYS before the start of “hurricane season,” lucky us! Since then we’ve seen at least one tropical storm, and when my dear sweet mother came to visit and get a little Fla sunshine, she was welcomed with flooded roadways and parking lots. Mother Nature is in desperate need of a few stiff drinks it appears! Good thing I’m naturally a ginger kid and can’t tan well anyway. The rest of the state is spending their summer on my level this year, pale skin everywhere! :)
Speaking of my handsome husband, and all husbands out there for that matter who have experienced their wives being pregnant… GOD BLESS YOU ALL! Folks, I am convinced that I married a saint. Ladies, what HAPPENS to us during these last couple months? Here I am thinking I have owned this pregnancy thing with my eyes closed… no morning sickness, no strange cravings, no real hormonal outbursts. Now, however, I get mad if poor @Reaper_3 doesn’t take the dog out at the exact second I want him to go outside. I joke with him that he thought he was braving the worst of all things during his deployment, but that was just a trial run for having a pregnant wife! LOL! Seriously though, fellas, I give you a round of applause (the good husbands anyway) for braving this 9 month journey with a smile on your faces! Props!

I have had a large number of y’all asking me about my pregnancy on Twitter. @CourtWSummers just recently asked how pregnancy has been in comparison to what I had expected. To be honest Courtney, I have been incredibly blessed these last several months. I spent my first trimester with an upset stomach very frequently, but that’s been the absolute worst of it so far. Now, with that said, I am reaching the final few weeks when baby girl really starts doing her own thing, which this week has included flipping head down. Thank God for that, because I was NOT prepared for the roller coaster of events that would have proceeded her staying head up! Anyway, along with her new position comes the fact that her sweet little baby feet are also positioned perfectly to Yakuza kick her mommy right in the rib cage. Bless her little heart! And she already throws a mean, MEAN elbow in my sides LOL! I have a lot of work to do in prepping this little angel for Med school when she seems so determined already on following in her mommy’s footsteps! But in all seriousness, I have been incredibly fortunate to have had a realatively easy pregnancy. I’ve been able to maintain a light workout routine and my weight gain is perfect according to average numbers, so hopefully that means I’ll be back to my old self in no time and ready to get back on your tv screens worldwide ;)

Let me quickly address one other pressing issue that you guys have been asking on a daily basis. Am I going to wrestle forever? Well probably not haha. Most of us have a certain amount of years in us and then we move on to the next chapter in our lives. With that said, do I feel like I’m forever retired and have nothing more to give to the wrestling world? Absolutely not. I’m 27 years old folks.. far from too old. And being a mommy doesn’t mean giving up your own dreams. It means rearranging your priorities and taking care of ALL aspects of your new life. So, when it comes to opportunities after this pregnancy I’ll say this and leave it at this: a few weeks ago there was a door closed in my career. When the time is right, there will be a window that opens up and I don’t know where that window will take me, but it will be one of two places: familiar ground or something somewhere that is completely new to me. Either way, whatever that path is, I’m going to go down it 100% and come back an even better version of the girl you all have watched, loved/hated and supported for several years. So stick with me on this ride because it’s not over yet!

Until next time… XoXo!

 

Allow me to (re)introduce myself…

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Hey everyone! First and foremost let me start this out with a disclaimer: this is my own personal blog, completely unscripted, written my way, about what I want. I will touch on all facets of things going on in my life and that will occasionally include my faith. This can be a touchy subject for some people and I completely understand. If anything I say at any time offends you, please exercise your right to not check back into this blog. I hope what I have to say is both entertaining and light hearted and keeps everyone interested and looking forward to seeing me again, when/wherever that may be. But please, understand that what you’re reading is mine, about me, and my thoughts. Everyone has opinions. These are mine. Thanks for respecting that! ;)

 

Alright then, let’s get to the good stuff! As everyone is probably well aware by now, I was released by TNA. As with any breaking news in the wrestling business, this has come with a number of questions/assumptions as to why I was released. There’s no top secret, exciting story to go along folks. I am inactive right now. I am not able to travel and perform, meet the fans and sell tickets. Dixie Carter kept me under contract for the majority of my pregnancy and provided me and my family an income for doing very little. I was not “fired” because I got pregnant. Keep in mind, that happened months ago LoL! So with that said, I am thankful beyond words and humbled by every experience I was given because of TNA. Am I hanging up my boots now because I have chosen to be a mom? I don’t think I am. I think I still have quite a bit left to give. Would I go back to TNA if the opportunity presented itself? Of course. In the meantime, however, I’m starting a new chapter in my life and I am so excited to share pieces of this journey with you guys. I have received many, many questions over the past few months about baby girl so I’d like to quickly answer a few of those: Yes, we have decided on a name. No, I won’t be plastering it all over the internet… I’m sure somehow, somewhere that will come out anyway lol. We ARE having a little girl, her daddy wants her in jiu jitsu as soon as possible and mommy wants her in pageants so I guess the apple won’t be falling far from the tree in this case! ;) And as far as our due date… we’ve got less than 2 months ;) that’s sufficient enough right?

In other news, I have still been keeping up with my girls on Thursday nights and after last night’s episode of Impact, I have to say that Gail and Taryn tore it up in Las Vegas in that ladder match! Not to anyone’s surprise I am sure, but the exceeded any expectations I had for that match! Gail truly is one of my BFFFFFF’s and I get amped everytime I watch her wrestle because I know she never ever EVER goes into a match half-assed! Clearly, neither does Taryn! I love the fact that what you see is absolutely what you get with her. She’s so fun, bubbly and full of personality, and then she gets into a match like last night’s and does serious work! Congrats to both of these ladies on setting the bar for what people’s expectations of women’s wrestling will be moving forward (on second thought, maybe i AM ready to retire! haha!) 

Alright folks, that’s all I’ve got for now. My weekend party starts now with a little gym sesh, some bark park for the fur balls, and a Friday night of nursery decorating! Wild and crazy, I know! ;) Check back in weekly for updates, pics, answers to Twitter questions and more! Keep me busy guys! Fire away with those questions. Some I’ll answer, some I’ll pretend I didn’t even have to read. ;) And thank you all again for the sweet messages you’ve been sending via Twitter this last week. Remember, you haven’t seen the last of me by any means. When/where… we’ll see ;) 

XoXo